Meus Vox

I've finally come to overstand the anxiety I hold towards women. In my past relationships I had grown to feel I was not good enough for her, primarily unwanted within her family group, that led me to wish for deeper acceptance which in the end was never received. In a friendship I had, I grew overly obsessed over the one person I thought I could please, after sometime this friendship ended in animosity and distaste. Due to the color of my skin and the proper grammatical eloquence I portray, I have always felt outcasted. I guess due to all of these life experience I now feel unworthy to accept the love of others, it has driven me to fear I cannot live up my own expectations....or those which have been embedded in my thought and projected itself subconsciously because of these experiences. Now I must rewrite the debauchery this life experience has bestowed and realize my true power, eloquence, and worth; this is the first step in a new direction.